Here it is, grief, showing up again in December. It happens every year and it is unexpected every time. I must forget about the previous year and/or expect it to wear off somehow. I mean it has been 11 years? 11 years since mum died and still with this bullshit? I once thought having my own kids might “fix Christmas” but it makes me miss her, and my dad, more.
Anyway, all that is to say I’m sorry if this is a tricky time of year for you too, for whatever reason. Solidarity.